Lost

Lost time will never found. Lost myself too. Today...i really dunno how to describe my feeling as well,like raindrops -Tik tak tik tak tik tak... and my heart tell me she is crying. And i, pretend that i am strong.I am strong I am strong I am strong. But am I?IDK.. after marching practice i feel like i wanna cry out loud,I am so stress...am i stupid? Marching also dunno,i think my body got something wrong,i cant control my body well,turn left,turn right,turn around,which leg step first-right or left...bla bla bla bla bla.I am so faint! Went back home,i need someone to hear my heart's sound,but no one.I face the wall until my parent come back at night. No one listen at me,I told the WALL. I dun wanna be like this,i want to make a change. I don't want people see my weakness although I know and i realize. WHY ? Tomorrow got practice,i wonder i will scolded by those seniors and those well in marching.I wonder for day and night. Anyone can teach me? Hello?Hi?Huh? my sounds bounce back from the white wall. It's heard no more. 

Oh my gosh

While i am "dreaming" in SJ tuition class,i suddenly remembered that yesterday i didn't watch ANTM! O>O Oh no..!

can the time reverse? Zzzzzzz.... no wonder i felt like lost something.In cycle 9,i most prefer Heather actually..because she is gorgeous,beautiful and classic beauty.I think her face is unique,less people has this kind of face,i cant describe it by words. xD But what she lose? Because she lack of social,and she is shy compare to others.Plus she was diagnosed with Asperger syndrome when she was fifteen years old...and so she is weak compare to others contestant.But why i want to mention is her spirit and braveness is worth to give her a BIG clap! She still continued the competition although *some* contestants bullied her. Shame la you who bullied her! Especially her..*ehemmm*...and actually Saleisha also good lar but i just not very interested about her,she is good in Cat walk.=] Today i look stupid! Arhhhh...sorry for all inconvenience that i make...But finally the problem was solved and...Thank you so much =] I just want to listen until the meeting end because i dun wanna to miss anything.Is really weird right? Actually i have to go but i still stayed at there.I wondered that just late a bit never mind la but when i stepped out the school i didn't saw uncle's car...I started felt nervous...Aih...i wanna stop at here...i am so tired.Actually during the sj class i also wanna fall asleep already,but i pulled the sleepiness back.Tomorrow is better than today! Look FORWARD! ♥

No Exam!

I just want to scream out loud-I DON'T WANT EXAM! Why should we suffer like this?! School reopen not more than 3 weeks then the exam is gonna start already. Shit! After this i dunno still got how many exam queue up wait for us to sit for it. Direction of exam is lose,why should we exam? For result? For future? Of course,this answer i am sure everyone will answered. This is what exam mean it at here! We have to study so much things...Especially for me is Science,Sejarah and Geografi.But what i have to improve much is Mathematics..just dunno why...when i came up secondary school,my maths sucks a lot.Sigh...=[ Urghhhhh..! Just dunno why everytime i open my book to do revision i felt sleepy...and now i am wasting time on surfing the internet..enjoy korean musics...and somemore else,the BLACK WEDNESDAY is coming! No way! It is so stress to learn with her.Somemore..she do loves ask qustions. Although i know she did this is for our own good lar,improve confidence,memory,IQ,the way how u answer question...still got? xD LOL...School life is getting tougher...Kokurikulum will start soon. And... i have to be ready. 

Rainbow always comes after the rain.=] 

P:S:I listened korean songs lately,nice and unforgettable melody,still inside my heart.=]

The whole new day (:

D first day of school,it was extremely cold and i felt sleepy...When i am showering i dun wan to go out bathroom anymore because is so WARM! ♥ it! After i slow slow mo(translate in chinese),i went school around 6.45.It is still early.):When i stepped in the school,it was so dark! Urgh...i dun like that feel like this. The sky is dark,the road is black,i cant see the people clearly,i cant see the greenery...ALL THE THINGS was BLACK colour.I found Munyie stood infront the toilet.xD LOL!Started line up...and started raining...no need assembly =P After D 1st day of school,all the things happen is out of my expectation. Perhaps..it will be better after a few weeks...Hope i can adapt myself to the change quickly.=] But i am sure i won't give up! You will never knew the things that will happen tomorrow,so WHY we should not just SMILE?  

Share (: I love this song much. ♥ REFLECTION ♥ 

Look at me 

you may think you see  
who i really am  
but you'll never know me  
every day  
it's as if i play a part  
now i see  
if i wear a mask  
i can fool the world  
but i cannot fool my heart  
 
who is that girl i see  
staring straight back at me? 
when will my reflection show  
who i am inside? 
 
i am now  
in a world where i  
have to hide my heart  
and what i believe in  
but somehow  
i will show the world  
what's inside my heart  
and be loved for who i am  
 
who is that girl i see  
staring straight back at me? 
why is my reflection  
someone i don't know? 
must i pretend that i'm  
someone else for all time? 
when will my reflection show  
who i am inside? 
 
there's a heart that must be  
free to fly  
that burns with a need to know  
the reason why  
 
why must we all conceal  
what we think, how we feel? 
must there be a secret me  
i'm forced to hide? 
i won't pretend that i'm  
someone else for all time  
when will my reflection show  
who i am inside? 
when will my reflection show  
who i am inside? 

One day more (:

One day more (:

Form 3's life start.My physical is ready but my soul didn't ready yet.What else i can say? 

Am i never be ready? No,I started calculating the days remain.I started think about my form 3's life.I started think about what club i should join.I started think about next year exam(Its killing me.).I started think about what should i choose?>science stream or art stream.I started feel nervous.I lose my way...I want to stop the time.Is it impossible.NO.It wasn't.Time still running.We have to chase him.Hope i can get through it whether the hurricane is coming.Haha>just jk.^-^

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